I’m pretty sure I would be happier if I were less odd.
I’m better, overall, because I am this odd though, which is reassuring. But lasting interpersonal relationships are difficult for me. I’m incredibly aloof at times but I tend to be charming too.
That makes me seem disingenuous.
I tend to burn through relationships like I’m trying to beat the record for the fastest relationship.
I’m not special in this regard. I imagine those who had to heal from large wounds early in life have some similar things. But tonight, I only feel my feelings and I am missing something.